35 sounds so....
Grown up.
Mature.
Adult.
Established.
Of which, I am none. I don't feel any of those. I feel like I'm still 25 - well except I'm more tired than I was then, my eyes are worse and I have some grey hairs, and some annoying creaks.
Turning 30 didn't bother me at all. It didn't phase me, was just a blip on the radar.
Maybe its because when I was a girl dreaming, I figured I'd have "it" all figured out at 35.
I don't. What I have figured out, is I'm not sure what "it" even is. What I have figured out, is I'll never figure it out. I don't control it. I can plan 7 ways till Sunday, but unless its God's plan, its useless.
A song from Casting Crowns new album really puts it into perspective for me. Its called "Your Already There"
Thank GOD He's already there. He knows I am just bumbling along on this path before me, trying to find my way following Him and trying to keep His word a light unto my path. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes I fail, but I'm grateful for the blood that covers me, and the Father that picks me up and dusts me off and sets me back on the path.
I'm so grateful that even when I don't have "it" figured out, God knows where we are headed.
Its so comforting the words to this song I've added "bold' to the lyric that really speaks to me.
From where I'm standing
Lord its so hard for me to see
Where this is going
And where You're leading me
I wish I knew how
All my fears and all my questions
Are gonna play out
In a world I can't control.
When I'm lost in the mystery
To you my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there
From where You're standing
Lord, You see a grand design
That You imagined
When you breathed me into life
And all the chaos
Comes together in Your hands
Like a masterpiece
Of your picture perfect plan
When I'm lost in the mystery
To you my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there
One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
I can't wait to enjoy the view
And see how all the pieces fit
Here is a link to the video if you want to hear them sing it.
I love the whole "come to the well" album, but Already There and Come to the Well are my favorite tracks.
"when you are runnin' on empty, and you can't find the remedy, just come to the well"
"just rest in my arms awhile, you'll feel the change my child, when you come to the well"
leave it all behind, and come to the well...
I love the whole "come to the well" album, but Already There and Come to the Well are my favorite tracks.
"when you are runnin' on empty, and you can't find the remedy, just come to the well"
"just rest in my arms awhile, you'll feel the change my child, when you come to the well"
leave it all behind, and come to the well...
